(30) Thirty Days of Grateful Praise: You

These springtime bluets seemed to be growing right out of the rock. They look delicate, but they are tough little buggers.

If you click on my “About” link, you’ll see where I mention that I started my blog in 2007, in part, as an attempt to re-awaken my muse.  Going through repeated hardships can sure suck the juice out of you, and that’s pretty much what happened to me—my well of inspiration went bone dry.  The last straw was when my abusive ex-husband’s third wife contacted me out of the blue in late 2006 and asked if I’d help her.  I must admit—I didn’t want to do it, but I did because they had a six-year-old son together, and he was the one who was suffering most.

Helping her (and she was a lovely person) was even more intense and difficult than I thought it would be.  I relived not only my own abuse, but I heard of the egregious lies he had told about me.  I don’t know why the outrageousness of his lies surprised me—I certainly knew he was capable of it—but it did.  It seems I am constantly blindsided by the depth of meanness that people are capable of.  I never seem to learn.

Anyway, I’m not sorry I did what I did because she finally found the courage to leave him, and she and her son are doing very, very well now.   But going through that, on top of everything else, somehow killed the spark in me.   My creative spirit was a dried husk of a thing.  So I decided to start a blog, hoping that being forced to write often might squeeze out whatever juice was left.

And it did.  I learned that I could write, that my muse was only sleeping, not dead, and that there were people who actually wanted to read what I wrote.  Imagine that!   But even better, I’ve made connections through my blogging that have helped to sustain me—in so many ways.  Your kind words not only have given me more confidence in my writing, they have restored some of my faith in the goodness of people.  And, oh! how I needed that.

So…thanks, y’all.  Thanks especially to those who have stuck by me as my family has gone through yet more hardships—your kind comments have meant a great deal.   And I’m thankful, too, to those who read before, even if they no longer do. It’s always difficult to know why folks stop reading your blog, but I’ll have to say that I’ve grieved every reader I have lost, because I do think of y’all as friends.  But no hard feelings—I know they had their reasons and I respect that.

But my heartfelt thanks to you, dear friends, who continue to read my rambling, raving, and ranting writing.   And who put up with silly puns and possibly excessive alliteration. :-) To y’all—who continue to help me believe both in myself and in the kindness of people.  I am deeply grateful for you.

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23 Responses to “(30) Thirty Days of Grateful Praise: You”

  1. Betsy Adams Says:

    Oh Beth—–I have told you over and over how talented you are in the field of writing… I’m SO glad to hear that you recognize that now… I hope and pray that you will continue to write—not just a blog, but stretch yourself farther –and think about writing a book. You just have a unique talent with words —and I know that God would want you to use that talent…

    Thanks for these 30 days… I have thoroughly enjoyed them… I hate to see them end. Hope you will continue blogging!!!!

    Much Love,
    Betsy

  2. Bonnie Jacobs Says:

    Thank you for your thirty days of grateful praise. You have encouraged me to think of all the things I’m grateful for. If you need a break now, I say go for it. But whenever you post again, you will make a lot of people happy.

  3. Bikbik & Roro Says:

    What a lovely, eloquent post — you are such a wonderful writer, and person. I know what you mean by “never seem to learn” — boy do I! — but I am encouraged and reassured, through conviction AND experience, that we come out stronger and better from such challenges, and that it reflects a deep purity and love to be able to continue believing the best of people. Thank you for these 30 days of beauty, reminders that every day can be one of grateful praise. Hugs :)

  4. Sharon Says:

    This almost sounds like goodbye and I truly hope that it isn’t. I’m one of your newer readers and hope we can be blog friends for a long time. As you know, I’ve loved the 30 Days series and have begged for more.

    • Benjamin Says:

      I believe I speak for Mama when I say that this is definitely not goodbye, just a pause. Just thought I’d put that in!

  5. Plowing Through Life (Martha) Says:

    What a wonderful 30 days it’s been, Beth. I have enjoyed each and every post, and have learned even more about you. And I am grateful for you, too. I’ve met some of the most amazing people in the blogging world, and you are one of them.

  6. CountryDew Says:

    Thank you for the 30 days of blessings. It has been wonderful to read and I hope you don’t stop! I always enjoy your work and you *do* have a great talent. As I am often told, it’s a shame to waste it. You just never know who you’re touching through a work such as this. Be well and take care.

  7. Jes Says:

    It’s been a wonderful 30 days to read–much love to you!

  8. Darla Says:

    A delightful 30 days with you, Beth! I’m grateful for you, too … :-)

  9. Jayne Says:

    You are simply a delight my friend. Your words and prose and photos bring a smile to everyone who is blessed to read and see them. I’m back by the way… and I’ve missed you here. :c)

  10. Rider Says:

    You made the internet a wonderful place for thirty days, Ms. Blue. Thank you.

  11. Benjamin Says:

    Yes!!

    and a happy new year of blogging and other worthy pursuits it will be.

  12. Kay G. Says:

    And I am grateful for you! We are so much alike, it surprises me! I can never get how cruel people can be either, it keeps knocking me down in life.

  13. Sweetflutterbys3 Says:

    Just the fact that your ex husband’s wife felt you were someone she could turn to for help says so much about your charactor. It’s what each of your readers get to see each time you post :)

  14. Clair Z. Says:

    Maybe the people that you think have quit reading have just taken a little vacation from the internet. That’s what happened to me! I will never stop checking here to see what you’ve been up to and what you are thinking, but it just might be longer in between visits. You are so special to so many people who have never actually seen you face to face. I hope you always remember that.

    (Written from the Beth Chair in New Mexico).

  15. Rider Says:

    It is not possible, within the confines of this tiny “Leave a Reply” box, to do justice to your Thirty Days of Grateful Praise postings, Ms. Blue. And so the best I can say is this: every one of your posts was brilliantly written.

    This particular posting — about your helping your ex-husband’s third wife — reminded me of other posts you’ve written. The one about your helping your mother by lifting her from the car to the wheelchair. You hurt your back while doing so, and it bothers you to this day. And the ones about your spending months and months with Benjamin when he was a boy and again recently, helping him adjust to the world. Even the one about your saving the mockingbird parents and baby by chasing away the hawk.

    All these postings made me wonder what the relationship is between goodness and suffering. “Why does Beth, who is so good, have to suffer?” I asked. But I soon realized that my question was wrong. There’s no cause-and-effect relationship there. It’s not “because Beth is good, she has to suffer.” It’s “because Beth is good, she’s willing to suffer.”

    Then I thought, “I hope Beth feels rewarded.” Her ex-husband’s third wife and her child escape from the ex-husband’s abuse. The wife and child establish a new life for themselves, and they do well. Beth’s mother’s quality of life is improved. Benjamin recovers, gets a job, and leads a good and productive life. The mockingbirds survive and thrive.

    Beth is at the center of her own good universe. And all of us who read her blog are better people for doing so.

  16. vickilane Says:

    A lovely post. Thank you for sharing yourself with us.

  17. Debi Kelly Van Cleave Says:

    Oh my. Thirty days of grateful praise–I wasn’t reading because you weren’t writing and then I turn my back and all of a sudden you shoot out something every day for thirty days! What a nice idea. I was impressed when I scrolled down real quick to see that these praises were pretty long too. There will be no quick reads. I will have to come back and catch up. Good for you Beth. I would like to say I am inspired (and I am) to do at least one a week, but who am I kidding?

  18. Ana Says:

    Beth, you are a unique individual. I am not saying one should harm its own health for others, but the fact you decided to help this human being for her and her child shows what you are made of and that is rare.

  19. Bikbik & Rorob Says:

    Pop by my blog for a little surprise for you :)

  20. Ana Says:

    Missing your great amazing posts and photos. Have a great weekend.

  21. Bikbik & Roro Says:

    Beth, I’ve been missing you and your beautiful posts! P.S. Do pop by my blog today for another little surprise :)

  22. Ana Says:

    Beth, missing you. Hope you come back soon :)

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